These days sucks,

Just absolutely nobody to entertain me.No companionship,no friendship,no relationship,noTHING.

Sometimes friends betray friends,well,nobody betrayed me yet,ill just keep a high lookout for any signs of mischevious betrayal...Not that im hoping for one of course.I guess i should be like faliq,such a easy going person.If friends dont like us,who cares,as long as we dont become enemies with them.Technology can help us from being lonely,thats what i noticed from him.The problem is we can decrease our social bar.Some of these things also can lead to depression.

I'll be in 3e4 next year,not that im stupider than the others,theres just no space.With the help of those clever 2e1 kids,they can regain my confidence in being super duper clever again.I hope so.3e3's a fun class but they can be too rowdy,thats what i imagined it to be.A fun,outgoing,happy class.3e4 is just going to be just plain dull.But we'll achieve better results in years to come.I hope.

There's many hopes for me this month.One of them is i hope i can accept to changes that will occur soon.Friends will start changing and everything due to the class theyre into.I'm here just praying i have a good teacher to teach me into being a clever student.Sec 3 means i will be a upper sec student.Means having to study everyday even after school with friends.Less playing,more of studying.I can see myself working hard to fit more logic into this teeny-weeny-growing-bigger-brain of mine.

Malaysia holiday was great,yeah.But came back to Singapore,everything started to turn bad luck for me.Everything.I just notice that some people just change so incredibly fast.Including me.I start to think that the whole world is against me.Nobody wants me.I'm starting to hate myself for many particular reasons especially for what i have done these few days like quarreling with friends over such minor things.

Small things do matter to me.Thats a quote from Ridwan.It's true.It do matter to me.Even the slightest small things people talk,got me thinking,are people hating ?
Friends bond with friends.Friends fight with friends.In the end,friends ignore friends.Should i say anymore more clearly than this ?You dont have to comfort me,friend.I just HOPE;again that you,as my friend know that i dont give a damn to these apologies.I may look quiet but im swearing and cursing inside.

Just a slight reminder to you guys,i love you.Dont get the wrong idea to all of these things im writing in this blog as these things are what im thinking.Hope you guys understand how im feeling right now,


;NoorUsmah